Last night I declared the sun would be out when I woke up, since I already pulled up my blinds for it and promised my mom.

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Noble Beast

Somebody put thick creamy jizz in our dish soap bottle.

I have never wanted to go shopping this bad:

long socks
sweater tights for people my size
space heater
carrots
long finger fitting gloves
oil for chain
front light

A First Taste yesterday

The first song is All That She Wants by Ace of Base, The Immaculate Collection of Madonna is here for the rest.

my room is a mess and so is your hair, most all of the time

come here

Wake up, I whisper to my mother. Wake up. I want to wake her so slowly, she will think it happened naturally. I blow on her face, and when my mother's eyelashes flutter, I run and hide behind the half-opened door. Then I wait, edge closer and closer to the bed. When I am very close, my mother's eyes fly open. What are you doing in here? She shuts her eyes again.

My mother falls asleep as easily as she breathes. She falls asleep mid-sentence, or even mid-bite. My father says my mother is a hummingbird. Hummingbirds, I read, often die in their sleep. One day, exhausted, they drop from the sky into a sleep from which they never wake.

semi-erotic

tell them now your pleasure's set upon slow release

meet on the ledge,

play say day lay hey ray bay gray may gay pay way stay, one thing's for sure--there are no allergies here

sally is a girl that likes to play

sharing the pool
to do list in the form of browser tabs
the adhesion and cohesion properties of water
singing while biking
taking the stairs down, mostly to see where it pops out
the warm kitchen

my cheeks hurt

my cheeks hurt
my cheeks hurt
dude eff this wind

cold photos

please, don't lie

wait did I kill Andy Warhol?

OMG I want to laugh at you too!

you're so pretty when you sleep

Lila, Douglas, Jason

Oh No

Did you get your camera?

cryers, cups, cuts

Whoa, Whoa, Whoa

Animals and Nature, 1890

double bag your shoes

fuck you, Reading-For-Pleasure kids!

Marbles Obviously Go in the Supply Drawer

20090609
Life is hard when you don't know how to do the basics.

20090608
I finally did it, I've finally done it. It took five years but I've memorized my checking account number.
A man was making waves for me in the pool this morning. I'm going to look up my local Polar Bears.
I can't hear the birds!
That felt horrible, I could never be a bookie.

20090607
I probably have really good kharma.
Mother with a mullet with a son with his daughter. In other words, a grandma with a mullet.
I'm not the parent who gives her problems.
Who opens for Andrea Bocelli? No one. He plays with the Hollywood Bowl Orchestra, accompanied by scenes of heterosexual heartbreak and romance.
Andrea Bocelli to bombs- how typical.
I thought I had Dorito flavored farts tonight.
Great, we both have men complexes.
And then I went to Taiwan, where new years is always eventful.

20090606
I used to not be able to eat without milk or rice.
Marbles belong in the supply drawer.

What The Fuck Was Fall

The Facts of Winter

20090112-1
That's one way to know if you're MX missile proof, or if you're just aloof

20090118-1
Instead of saying "the sun is bright today" an Akan speaker will say "the sun 'brights' today." (Ghana)

20090125-1
Art, style; taste, beer

20090125-2
I don't think we should use frames (What's up with that Bra)

20090125-3
I am putting up my hair but really I'm just waiting for someone to exit. These doors are heavy.

20090125-4
Electrostatic crown

20090126-1
And yes this is the first time I've ever seen Musollini, not to mention, I have yet to Wikipedia fascism

20090126-2
Intimate identification

20090126-3
Coordinated people; striped corduroy

20090126-4
Lenin or Stalin, looks like John Malkovich

20090202-1
In nothing but a onesie and a veil, she walked across the street in a trotting way, making others have no thoughts about lots of others around them because of the primary concerns she held on her heart, or intestines, without others around.

20090212-1
Commodities of the abstract sort

20090224-1
My cheeks hurt watching this; Shit's moving!; 4 voicemails!

20090226-1
Powell gives me the sniffles

20090302-1
If they were minorities, would we have these feelings?

20090302-2
The air is this color/taste (participatory)

20090304-1
We missed it on purpose to send a signal

20090312-1
Your account number is your ID number.

20090312-2
Bring your questions. If I can't answer them with the Bible, then there's no reason you should be listening to me.

OOOOOGURL

2090322-1
Parsley/cilantro; wind speed

20090417-1
Something that annoys me less

20090417-2
Some people are gross they don't even know it, like really really gross.

20090419-1
A family of men, men of the same ages only notable by face.

20090420-1
You can tell someone is a parent by the look on their faces.

20090420-2
I hate when people smile at me that much

20090427-1
Things to do with old backpacks

20090427-2
Different things or somethings or what

20090502-1
Not a more efficient or meaningful method, but that I am clear about it, even when I am in an enclosed space by myself.

20090502-2
Awkward moments in their relationships

20090504-1
Her skin is so malleable, is she old or black or sad

20090510-1
Do you need a new man?

20090511-1
With just our flashlights and our love; I hope this last time it will happen

20090512-1
He has tie clips

20090512-2
The universe exists for you

20090512-3
Using blank papers

20090512-4
Cupcakkation

20090520-1
All the things I'm good at

20090527-1
Same store names, better stores; better neighborhoods, better world

20090601-1
It's just not true because he's saying it to us, and I am one of us.

20090601-2
Defining my values; happy, a transitive verb; enablers

20090601-3
Replacing memories

20090601-4
"For Sure" (that which is personal or childish but is so important)

20090601-5
Phones ring in an empty office intermittently, they've come alive

20090601-6
We spend holidays together

20090601-7
What a basic lesson...how old are you?

20090601-8
Have those moments (blah blah blah)

20090601-9
Literally walked into each others' lives (couples and best friends; view from the bottom)

20090601-10
laughing is audibly smiling

20090602-1
In each smiling social gathering there is someone not present.

20090602-2
Your most hated piece (an exercise in mutual discrimination).

20090602-3
cash money cash money (labeled reflections)

20090602-4
I want you to do what you want, so What do you want me to do, he says. (conversations we could have had, version 2; maturation).

20090602-5
Sunday Summer Voicemail Day (mark them on your calendars; sharing calendars; not a ship)

20090602-6
The peace pole looking thing by JWAC is smoking, does this mean UCLA is getting a new cardinal?
My left toes have been numb, does this mean I am going to have a back attack?
They sell ice in North Hollywood.

20090603-1
Visitors visiting me

20090603-2
The 23rd day of my 23rd year has already passed, guess I'm waiting for the next February 6th through 7th. (excuses related to time; legitimate excuses).

20090603-3
Beating oneself and calling it assault, rain bubbling from floors instead of falling onto them.

I'm Always Excited To See Whether Or Not My Laundry Actually Comes Out Clean

I have been falling and waking and shaking and doing and working and editing and listing and punk'd!

One Thing's For Sure: The Toilet Is Always Different And I Will Watch TV

My drawings are falling! My tongue is scratching! My eyelid is curling! My clothes are tumbling! My neck is reforming! My mother is smiling! My friends are studying! My friends are sitting! My friends are looking! My bladder is calling!

My herbs are drank! My bike is red! My hairs are up! My record is real! My things are separated! My trash is plenty! My filter is there!

There were flowers and then there were groups and then there were steps and then there were cars and then there were beds and then there were plates and then there were were highlighters and then there were images and then there were butts.

I got it I got it I got it I

A toe nail cutting night; A finger nail cutting night; A bath night; A cleaning night; A back night; A calling night; A paper night; A music night; A bed night; A flurry human night; A friend night; A gathering night; A correspondence night; A keeping in touch night; A school work night; A mental load night; A paranoid night; A sobering up night; A night for technology; A night that is over; A night passing over; A public night; A late night; An early night.

I have been dreaming about Talisa and primary colors and my cousin responding to my e-mail and my responses and many a volley and generals and layer topography and real places but dull and fuzz and blues.

I asked him if he thought they had bunk beds at Mervyns and he said he thought they did but that I should call first.

There are no lines in Taiwan, only friendships.

Several days past before I found the cut on my left thumb.

Day One

Q Hey can we talk it out?
A NAH GET THE FUCK OUT!

And the first girl told the second girl this story, and the whole time she was talking it looked like she was about to crack up. The second girl was obviously scared. But the first girl, the one who was telling the story, looked like she was about to roll on the floor laughing.

And then, remembered Pelletier, Espinoza said the first girl was a two-bit psychopath and the second girl was a silly bitch, and the film could have been good if the second girl, instead of staring openmouthed and looking horrified, had told the first one to shut up. And not gently, not politely, instead she should have told the girl: "Shut up, you cunt, what's so funny? does it turn you on telling the story of a dead boy? does it make you come telling the story of a dead boy, you imaginary-dick-sucking bitch?"

And so on, in the same vein.

These are bad plans and there are things in the spaces with fog going backwards, just all around no matter where you are swiping your hands or waiting to get your picture taken. There are just things all around no matter how many things there are going in a rocketship for decades or just waiting to be eaten or threatened.

I say good morning and good night to my mother instead of hello and goodbye. I say okay like my cousin.

Hi Baby

I know you're under a lot of pressure at your work and all. And I do understand. You have no idea how much I understand. But you also don't have any idea how much I love you. I love you so much. I think about you, I feel you in my arms, I miss you..I miss you terribly. I've always wanted someone like you in my life. I love you so much that I'd do anything. I'd do anything. I'll be your perfect woman for you.

he acts with more conviction than I!

a Onesie and a Veil

laundry for 5 weeks, showered in 4 days, Chu for 2 weeks

When I wake up in the morning

I scheduled myself to think about the future tonight.

My collection history in chronological order: rocks, stickers, paper, sugar packets, matchboxes, yellow sweaters, spoons, chairs, tables.

My first pen pal went to Stanford University when I was in elementary school. She capitalized all of her Rs so I capitalized all of my Rs. Once when my mother was checking my homework she found them unacceptable so I rewrote all of my Rs. I had a bad eraser and poor technique.

When I called the UC Retirement Fund to see why I had an account with upwards of $3 in it, the lady who answered - I think her name is Sherry - had the same birthday as myself. She had to verify my identity.